I'm sure I've the only one with a huge army of monsters in my head. These ghosts are always talking to me and trying to give me advice on how to react in different situations. For many years I listened to their words and took their advice, these years I was not happy at all and now I know that these demons are not my friends, in fact they are my enemies.
There are many issues in my life that can have a negative impact on my self-esteem level. The monsters used these problems to overcome me and play their mind games. For this article, I'm going to explain my demons and how I finally destroyed them. You can use the advice for any kind of demon you have.
By the age of four, I had developed a stuttering effect that affected my speech for the next eighteen years of my life. I know what I can and cannot say and I also know about the social situations in which I may stutter.
For example, when a friend asks me a question, I think about the answer, but before I get a chance to say it, the noise comes. This voice or what I call my ghost, advises me not to say that word and to replace it with another word.
If you invite me to a party, my demons are advised not to go, because there are a lot of people I do not know. They reminded me that it is very difficult to talk to people I do not know.
At one point in my life, I decided that I wanted a change in my career because I was not happy with the role I was playing. However, my ghost reminded me that finding an alternative job means redoing the entire interview process. He continued that I always find it difficult to speak eloquently in interviews because of the stress factor.
I was able to talk very well when I was ***** and it was like that when I had the confidence to talk to women. In most cases a woman gave me her phone number and I said I would call her to set up overnight. However, the next day, when calm, the demons reminded me that making a phone call was a very difficult speech task for me and not bothering me.
Suffice it to say that I did not go on a first date until eighteen years after hearing the words of these demons as mentioned earlier.
Conditions must change and are about to change. After reading many self-help books, I realized what I was doing wrong. I should not listen to these demons, all I really need to do is do the opposite of what I said. Steve don't go to that party, ok I will go. Steve did not call that woman, OK, I do, etcetera.
I'm not trying to say it's easy to do. Although there are still demons in other areas of my life I am glad to say that I have exterminated my speech monsters and am now simpler. There aren’t as many people as there used to be and I hope to slowly kill them all.
I see it as a war. There are so many battles and I have to say I can’t win them all. I talk to my monsters all the time and especially when they win in battles like this. They may have won this particular battle but I tell them I will win the whole battle.
After reading this article you will probably think that I am a bit apathetic. I certainly do not care, I am happier now than in the past.
Best wishes for your quest to improve your own life.
Author:Rameen Atif
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