When we try to figure out our way out of uncomfortable, painful or even destructive feelings or to achieve a goal, we are on a path of deception. No matter what you achieve in life, you will have to deal with the deepest emotions, every feeling, every high and low being born knocking at the door of your heart. You can win the lottery, be as famous as the Beatles, be as beautiful as Marilyn Monroe, be as rich as the most rude and egotistical dictator in the world. It will not save you from the feelings that every human being can feel.
When you feel the inner pain of lack, don't try to show it or achieve the goal. Otherwise, you are just wasting your energy. You are trying to go beyond life, reality, your caste. Instead, prepare yourself to fully experience the inner strength of how you feel, to invite the depth of the feeling that you are capable of feeling, whatever the feeling may be At that moment. Just by observing your feelings you create inner strength to experience calmly, even happily and lovingly and to appreciate the tone of every feeling that runs through your consciousness.
Your reflections and goal accomplishments are on your way, and they are on your way to you. Whatever you achieve does not provide a stable and lasting fulfillment. After the joy of celebration, you will see that to overcome what you have achieved, you will see moving forward with resistance against the forces of change, which is the danger of taking it all away. This inner state of stickiness and resistance means that you are in fear. No longer is your great deed, your gold metal, your brass ring, your “soul mate” brings you happiness. You find yourself once again in a struggle for lost power against change.
Feel all the joys of celebration that come with the appearance of your miraculous dreams coming true. When you meet the fear of going through these situations, like the sweet dreams you wake up in the morning light, feel it all. There is nothing you can do to get rid of your loneliness, your fear of poverty, your feelings of shame, guilt and remorse, at least not for a moment. There is no one you can look up to who will make you permanently good, fit, loved and respected. But here's a real revelation: You don't need anyone to save you.
All of your emotions are basically beautiful, including the emotions that make you feel so crushed that you want to die. You can experience all your emotions from a stable place of inner peace. When you observe every feeling and feel it completely, you realize that your consciousness of your feeling is unshakable and unchanged. Just as the sun replaced by clouds that can obscure it, so your consciousness does not change by what it perceives. Gradually you will find yourself recognizing yourself by the light of your awakening rather than by the purpose of your awakening. You can see happiness and pain, sorrow and joy with complete oneness. Beyond that, you will know that awakening is actually a permanent state of happiness, love, peace, and perfection. A quiet but thunderous inner joy will spread in your consciousness, transforming every state of feeling into beautiful harmony, a beautiful harmony that will surpass the most wonderful music. One that surpasses even the beauty and harmony of nature's greatest displays. But it comes later, much later.
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