Tuna is playing with the ball in his mind, today he is not shouting, he is not crying. Why is he crying, Mother is a stag. Nilima looks at him for a long, long time. How beautiful Tuna is, his eyes are just like his father, his cheeks are beautiful fair, and red. But the smile is just like Noelia's. Noelia's smile is so common, so fluent, that it stands out even in the crowd. Alan was mad at Noelia's smile, but today!
- Are you Noelia Sara?
Noelia is startled, an old man seems to be the head of this institution.
- Mom, you...
- Hmm, I am Noelia.
- And I understand Naan.
- Hmm.
- Look so sweet, her father didn't come.
What will Nilima say, her father didn't come, why didn't he come, what will he say?
- I understand, Mother, you don't have to say anything. But you have to wait a little, whether Father actually went out a little!
- Oh, don't come back today. It was said on the phone today.
- Hmm, but a case of a child came suddenly, so he left early in the morning. But he will return before the afternoon, after completing the legal work. You will have to sit for a couple of hours.
- Well, I am.
- Let me tell you something, Mother.
- Tell me.
- These kinds of children are very sensitive, a little happy, and a little angry. Handling them is also very difficult.
- What should I do, Father, I have no choice.
- I understand mother, the world of girls is first. But you are a mother now. You can stay!
- I can
- Well. It's good if you can. Sit up, I'm watching your lunch.
Noelia is very disbelieving that she can say that she can. If she says she can, she can't. Noelia is in a lot of pain, Tuna's face is so charming, just like Alan's. Noelia saw Tulai falling asleep on the ground while playing. Who would say that he is seven years old, his mind is still like that of a three-year-old child. Sometimes less than that. Nilima sitting on the ground in her arms began to rub her head. When she smelled her mother, Tulai hugged Nilima even more. She wiped the sweat from her son's forehead with her mitt, Nilima wiped the saliva that rolled down her face. Leaving Tulai, how will he go?
On the first day, everyone was happy, and the entire nursing home ate sweets. Alan. Alan's mother, and Alan's father all wanted a son, that's how it happened. Then Annaprashan happened, and no relatives were left out.
- Oh Nilima, what happened to see your son? Absolutely royal.
- I will not look at this happy son at all, I tell you. But my grandson!
- Ah, sister, where did I look? When you see such a boy, you come out of your mouth.
That cotton grows up slowly. Screams and mischief keep the house. But his intelligence does not grow. A three-year-old child, even if he understands a thousand words, does not have to go out of the house, and give it to his mouth. When he gets on the roof, he pushes his grandmother.
- What a naughty boy, your wife.
- Still little mother.
- What's more, little girl, you don't have such intelligence, you don't have devilish intelligence.
Nilima thinks it will be fine when she grows up.
But growing up doesn't change anything. That's the situation. Instead, the mischief increases. He is admitted to school, but he complains every day. He suddenly gets angry, and even the teachers do not let him go. Finally, he is released from school.
- I don't understand why Tulai is doing this. Can't you control him?
- When I am there, he doesn't do anything, he stays calm. What happens when he goes to others?
- A five-year-old child, but look at his intelligence, can't remember anything properly. I don't know who to talk to when he gets angry - all this! I am thinking, how can I raise my son like this
- Tuna is not seen by the doctor once, sometimes some children are retarded. If the doctor is not seen.
- Hmm.
Finally, the doctor informed me,
- Autism, but you are lucky that your child can go back to normal, this is not possible for many children. Such children are not like normal children, although their intelligence is delayed, their emotions are more than normal people. So raise him differently, with a little different care. It has to be done. With a lot of love and time. If given proper care, one day it will become very normal.
Returning home that day was pure emptiness.
- Alas, what has happened to me, I have held such a boy in my belly until the end, I am unfortunate. What will happen to my son, oh God...
- Nilima, you put Neon to sleep and go.
If Alan saw how much Nilima cried holding Tulai that night, Alan was out of the house all night. She had never done such a thing before, how many years has Nilima known this Alan? College love had developed until marriage. Although Alan's parents wanted a more beautiful girl, still Nilima was the one. The smile forced Alan to take it all his life. Today, Alan has moved away in one fell swoop.
When Alan returned home in the middle of the night, he reeked of the smell of alcohol. Alan knows that it is not his fault, nor Nilima's, but still, it is their loss.
Then slowly Tulai's love started to decrease in the world, and now no one takes care of her eating and sleeping. If her screams become unbearable, she kills two or three. When Nilima goes to the office, she keeps the door closed, she is kept silent by fear in the dark room. Slowly, Tuna started to get worse. The kid didn't do anything, didn't eat, just broke things and screamed.
- If the wife has such a crazy son, how can anyone live in the house? Give up hope of the son.
- Mother, what are you saying?
- Oh, what can I say? But tell her what she hopes for, I didn't think about another child, and yes, if you check this time, you won't have a child.
- You know what you are saying, since when did you become so merciless?
- Ah, come on. I saw such a crazy grandson, whose mother is okay. My body is healthy and strong, yours is a lumpy grandmother.
- My Tuna is not crazy, he is the son of this house. I am his mother, ok
How can I throw it? You could?
Sat, I am the mother of three children. At your age, my heart yearns for me. Like you, I have never come to the house of bread and butter. Today, my family is in your lap, so everything will be gone. You can send this child away. And think again. And if that child has to leave the office and die all day long, then go to another place and die. Either see a good person, or I will push him on the neck. Death! The old stubborn boy has to sleep again, his body is burning.
Nilima does not know what to say, who has been in the family for eight years. This is what she deserved from that family. Don't they see Naan's innocent eyes, don't their hearts melt when she calls her grandmother? They are so stone people! Everything is selfish! Tulai won't study like five other boys, won't go to the office, won't enter the competition to be fast. Parents can't brag that their son is a doctor or an officer from any office. That's why eyes won't have any value. Is the price of a child judged by buying a name?
Alan doesn't care about the world anymore, what do you know, he doesn't care about anything anymore. He doesn't come back at night, he doesn't eat, and even if he comes back, his mother screams at home.
But the day before yesterday was a bit too much. Nilima had to stay in the office for a long time due to a lot of work in the office. After returning home at night, she saw Alan sitting in front of the door.
- you are so early today.
- Where is your phone?
- To me, why?
- How many times have you called?
- Why go, actually... what happened?
Alan suddenly held her hand very tightly, how many times has Alan taken her hand on the bus, how many times has he crossed the road, how soft was the touch! Today Alan is much harsher, and hard.
- So I feel very, slowly.
- look
Seeing Nilima, mother lay on the bed. The bandage on hand.
- What is this? What happened? Mom...
- You don't have to wake up by being rude. Your good son almost killed his mother today.
- Cotton does not go to the roof. And how...
- I can't do it like this, Needy, I have to make a decision now.
- You know, Tuna...
- Here is the address of a voluntary organization. A mission runs it, the fathers there take care of such children and all are well...
- I mean, what are you saying?
- Tuna will be there.
- No, no, don't say that. He who can't sleep without me, he has to cook rice. Look how restless he is without me, how will he do? He still has to take a bath and comb his hair, he doesn't even do his homework without me. How can I throw it away, I can't, I can't.
- But tell me what to do, should I leave Mother? Leaving both of them in the house together...
- I stay at home, mother doesn't have to do anything. I'll take care of her. Don't bother anyone, don't do anything. I'll stay with her in the attic. I won't let her down.
- This is not a solution, Nilima, look at yourself, if it continues like this... can you tell us when we will fix it?
- He is not your son? How can you say that, tell me. Hugging you as a father does not your chest feel a little bit!
- Am I made of stone? I have no pain! But normal people like us can't give him anything but pain. When I raised my hand in anger that day, you don't know how much I suffered.
- I understand, Alan. Sometimes I think we are unusual or not. Never introduce yourself as a father again. Be a little ashamed in your heart.
- Blue!
- I asked for this by holding your feet, son of the house, you are happy to leave the house, aren't you? Well, that will be. Tulai will not be there, and will never come again. Never.
On that day, Alan only saw the broken arm of his mother, he did not see the sore spots on Tuna's back. The boy who was suffering from fever after being stuck in the darkroom was not even picked up by Nilima.
- Nilima Sara.
- Yes, Father.
- Come, Father Joseph has arrived, there are some formalities, that must be completed.
Before leaving Tuna, Nilima looks back. Tuna is sleeping. Goes closer, takes her finger out of her mouth, and plants a kiss on her forehead. Tulai's swollen cheeks are red. Nilima can't stay any longer and runs out. Catches a taxi outside the gate.
All the way Nilima does not know, tears are continuously falling from her eyes, ringing in her ears all the way,
- Mom, where do you go?
- Mom, don't wake me up.
- Mom...
When Nilima comes home, everything feels empty, there is no sound today. The mess of sound is out of the house today. Tulai's toys are lying around. Nilima is sitting in a pile of them like a madman. She is looking for the scarf that Tulai will put on her.
After feeding her mother-in-law in the afternoon, Nilima again comes to Tulai's house. Today, only Mom's noises are coming from the house. Tuna's nowhere...all is a mistake of the mind.
Tuna's three-wheeled bicycle rickshaw is lying on the roof, Tulai can't live without it. It was not brought!
Nilima spends her days looking at the clock.
Well, Tulai has eaten, is he now sleeping? Can you sleep without me? If you dream again in your sleep. If you are afraid of the dark, you will scream. If you feel pain while playing.
It is evening and night when thinking about these things.
Alan is very fluent today, mother and son have shared stories together.
Nilima with whom to talk!
There is no cotton!
As the night progresses, Nilima gets closer and closer.
- Don't be upset Nilima, Tuna will be fine.
- So! You know him very well!
- I know it's hard, too...
- Aha!
- Can't we start anew?
- I think so, too.
- But come on...
- Shut up, I'm going to Tulai's room.
Alan laughs and looks.
Tuna's bed at night and Nilima falls asleep on the pillow, she plays and laughs and Tulai cares for her in her dreams!
The next day, Nilima went out early in the morning and was still asleep.
- Go somewhere Grandma,
- Where to go.
- mean?
- You do not understand, Mother!
Alan's mother can't say anything.
Finally, he reached Father Joseph.
- How are your eyes?
- He is not eating anything since yesterday, nor is he sleeping properly. It is good that you have come, Mrs. Sara
- No Mrs. Nilima Sara
- Oh.
- Where is Naan?
- In that room, all day long, Mom and Mom.
Nilima runs, alone. Clinging very hard to Tulai.
- Mom, I will not do Al Duty. Take me, I will go to Bali.
- I'm not going anywhere, honey, not anywhere else.
- Mom doesn't cry, fools cry, Mom.
- yea
- Mom will give me rice, I...
- Shut up, honey, shut up.
- You will go to the bottom. I am afraid, Mom...
- No, honey, I'm not going anywhere.
Tulai kept rubbing her face on her mother's chest, and Nilima kept crying. She was looking for this all day yesterday.
Nilima is now a member of this organization, so to speak, a mother of ten more children now. She spends her time with the office and this family. Sometimes Alan comes, but Nilima does not want to return. Motherhood takes care of everything else.
Father Joseph was surprised, again and again.
Motherhood. Mothers are actually only one breed. Everything else is worthless and insignificant to her.
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